Dear Red Rock,
I apologize for this belated thank-you, I should have written earlier. I have immensely enjoyed getting to know you, and trust this is merely the inception of a long and fructuous friendship. To be honest, and I hope you don't mind me saying so, I was not expecting to be won over so completely or quickly. Long have I loved the mountains: the bare-boned Tetons whose spine I have crawled, the local range whose flank I call home and whose buttresses are my weekly escape from work and worry, the long scar of the Sierra Nevadas, and the prolific, precipitous peaks of Colorado.
Though our
first encounter was one of chance, having made your acquaintance I eagerly took the next opportunity to return and plumb your heights as you proved to be as interesting, enigmatic, and beautiful as the alpine geographies I have come, in part, to rely upon for my sense of place in the world. You'll excuse my candor, I hope, but I discovered in your arid austerity a quality that my human-privileged vocabulary is compelled to call kindness. I don't know what word or symbol more appropriate to your sphere might communicate better the sentiment I'm struggling to express, but I hope this missive of sorts can flesh out, in a way you can appreciate, my deep affection.
Your birth and maturation have been subjects of geologic scrutiny for ages and an impersonal review of your most intimate qualities can be had by even the mildly curious. Again, excuse my human bias, but out of a desire to touch a loneliness I might feel in your situation, I offer a more intimate appraisal, to celebrate you beyond the mere ego of my own exploits, but still within the language of my personal experience, for the selfless (ha!) good you have done me. Allow me to elaborate.
Two features of your sand-scape are primarily responsible for these sentiments I'm struggling to communicate - first, an inconspicuous sub-peak of Rainbow Mountain known as Cloud Tower, and second, the impressive Black Velvet Peak.
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| photo: Jake Moon - we climbed a route up this tower known as "Crimson Chrysalis |
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| photo: Jake Moon - we climbed a route up this proud mountain known as "Epinephrine" |
You have a long memory - eons of the earth's heavings and ho'ings are recorded in your sandstone sutures. I wonder, do you remember the morning of April 11th? My climbing partner and I had woken early, before sunrise, to climb a long route up Cloud Tower known as "Crimson Chyrsalis." As we trekked in to Juniper Canyon, the dark fabric of space was torn by the morning's first daggers of sunlight.
Such a sight I have rarely had the good fortune of witnessing. You were resplendently sonorous - as the high brass of dawn sounded across the Great Basin in incandescent notes of yellow and orange, the light refracted off the faces of your high summits in baritone shades of rose. I was transfixed by the intertwining notes that stirred something like nationalism in my breast, and I loved you fiercely.
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| Sunrise at Red Rock, looking east (4.11.13) |
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| photo: Jake Moon - Sunrise at Red Rock, looking west (4.11.13) |
Is it fair to speak of your physiology? The heart is my center - the organ that transmits my life's blood and the poetic center of feeling and intuition. If I had to identify such a center for you, I might point to plates that shift beneath you, evidenced by the escarpments in your canyons. My heart beats, yours shimmies and shakes. If poetry is the language of the heart, mountains are the poetry of plate tectonics.
That morning, trailed by the fading notes of dawn's rousing anthem, we came to stand beneath your tower that we would spend the day scaling. Our path of ascent would be that long, dark crack that runs up your arm, aged and weathered, like a varicose vein.
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photo: Jake Moon - at the base of Cloud Tower. "Crimson Chrysalis," our
route up, ascends the prominent crack just shy of center that disappears into the dark varnish
above. |
I felt trepidation in those initial minutes as I ran my eyes up the steep muscle of your physique, that cracked, piebald face and your darkly-varnished, brooding brow.
While I don't wish you to feel any undue concern for me, you have your own to look after - both of the prickled and scaled variety, all of whom you manage to feed on meager alimony - I want you to know that I have been as of late heavy with an anemic ennui that is the result of a static life, and the attendant uncertainty in how to properly dispose of this weight. Such things can greatly dull one's senses, and colors memory in listless, runny tones. At the time of our ascent, as well as a few weeks later when we climbed Black Velvet Peak via a route named "Epinephrine," I was particularly absorbed by disparaging thoughts.
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| photo: Jake Moon - the "prickled variety"... |
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| ...and the "scaled variety" (chuckwalla) |
Wouldn't you believe, and I tell you honestly--not to win your favor by flattery, your landscape that stores earth's memory took this additional weight from me? Did you notice the gain as you sapped both my strength and cynicism? Grace for grace -- I left a lot of sweat and a little blood smeared along that thin line, though if you look for it now I'm sure it's already washed away or replaced by those of others. Landscape has long been, for me and I suspect many others, a receptacle for memory. Finite minds cannot store much in great detail, but a mountain, a desert landscape, can prompt one to remember.
Your age-lines, by the way, are beautiful to me; it has been by way of the marks of your mortality that I came to know you, and our conversations have given me further reason to love the world and my humble place within it. As we climbed the lower pitches of Crimson Chrysalis, I forgot my own trifling woes as we pieced together our steep passage, finding no adequate rebuttal for your breathtaking arguments to be of good cheer and grateful disposition.
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| photo: Jake Moon - High up on Crimson Chrysalis |
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| Jake Moon, loving the incredible holds formed by the patina. |
That sandstone! After the crack peters out in the upper reaches of Cloud Tower, where your brow is covered in a dark, blistered patina, we no longer twisted hands and feet into collapsed seams but pinched and balanced on the sharp edges of that varnish. For me and my partner the beauty of this tower, the canyon, and the entire preserve combined with the drama of the climb, both the fear and adrenaline, provided a powerful experience as cleansing and rejuvenating as a summer thunderstorm.
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| photo: Jake Moon - on the upper pitches of Crimson Chrysalis |
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| photo: Jake Moon - an awesome section of the 2nd pitch. |
As we stood on the summit, know that I felt no belittling feeling of conquest (god knows if I were to approach some of your proudest faces, or even try and spend a week in your lap on your own terms I would quickly concede your superior strength or get severely injured) - only gratitude for the permission given to stand at your shoulder and experience for a moment a fleeting exaltation. You may find my attempts to humanize you comical. I know you are none of these things. Think of these thoughs as another layer of varnish over your sandstone, not plastered on by the desert, but by memory, a kind of sedimentation of meaning.
I was tired by the end of the day. We had hoped to tackle an even longer route, "Epinephrine," but it would be an even longer day and a more taxing climb and we opted for an easier day and to save that route for another trip. I thought maybe I wouldn't feel the need to see you again for a long time - it is a long drive after all, and the geography within a few minutes of my home is top-notch - but after a few days I missed you more than I thought I would have, and I began to see the deep impression you'd made on me.
My partner has dreamed of you for some time now. He was eager to return. It took a few days of being back home, a few showers to completely wash the grit out of my scraped knuckles and the aches from legs and arms, before I finally realized that tiredness had bloomed, like your ornery cacti, into a kind of devotion.
A week later we again were quickly covering the 400 miles to again take advantage of your hospitality. The feature we were fixed on scaling, Black Velvet Peak (and particularly the route, "Epinephrine," that ascends it) is one for which you are widely lauded.
Maybe it is because human memory and particularly human resolve is weak and requires a constant shoring up that I think of returning to you again and again, but I think this most recent trip will be my last for the year, unfortunately. But what a farewell you gave!
So we crawled back, driving over 440 miles south on the I-15 for a single day of climbing. The familiar drive through the Strip, its sharp, steel towers, the crowds of torpid vacationers and weekenders staring mute at gyrating panels, buffeted by an unremitting bleep-ding-ringing and flashing lights and enough liquor dispensed by buxom cocktail waitresses to float a yacht and sail it off the edge of consciousness. The Strip is the final dying moments of a bad seizure.
And you, just beyond. As Vegas is reduced to an indefinite incandescence behind us and your soft walls rise before us, visible even in the dark, I feel as if the desert rose you up from its planar basins to keep militant watch over the city you border, to hold this dissipation in check, let it not sour the land nor its dependents with its spurious, saturated excess.
Develop no further, water-mongers and steel-worshipers, herein lie cacti, lizards, and other sanctities.
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| Blooming cactus high on "Epinephrine" on Black Velvet Peak. |
I stood in one of your many stone-tossed river beds, soaring sandstone monoliths before and behind, my partner uncoiling the rope and sorting our gear. The broad north face of Black Velvet Peak was bisected by the fading demarcation of night and day, the stone on the upper pitches glowing a warm orange as we stood in chilly shadow.
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| photo: Jake Moon - looking up "Epinephrine" on Black Velvet. |
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| photo: Jake Moon - me leading the first pitch that ends at the beginning of the infamous chimney pitches. |
To be truly loved is a terrible thing; it is a call to bear the ponderous yoke of memory, and to shoulder the inexhaustible wear of association. To love truly is essential, as its machinations serve as sieve by which the trauma of memory is sifted from meaning.
Landscape, and I address you now, specifically, is not free of this yoke. Women and men, especially if they love the stories of their origin - both ancestral and celestial - love landscape as fiercely as kin, and often the two become alloyed. My writing to you is not a futile exercise. Though the complex calculations by which symbols transport meaning between two beings is perhaps not given to men and mountains (or women!) I feel you respond to my proffering in the abatement of memory's inflammation; in its place I find story and purpose.
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photo: Jake Moon - finishing the second pitch, about to
enter the real business of the climbs, the infamous
chimney pitches. |
The canyon floor, with each pull upwards, focused into a shrinking center as its margins were crowded by an expanding view. Jake and I moved towards an up-turned corridor, vertical passage up great slabs of slick sandstone that seemed to form your open esophagus -- how appropriate then, that here you spake to me the loudest!
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| photo: Jake Moon - approaching the chimney on Epinephrine |
Climbing up initial plates, stacked vertically back to back between the outermost slab and the main wall of the mountain the climbing was relatively easy. Above, however, lay the darkness and the smooth rock I would ascend by applying pressure to both sides of the featureless shaft. As the plates petered out my feet moved out from beneath me and came up even with my waist as I sort of sat - hanging in the air with my back being forced into the wall behind me by my legs. My arms splayed to my sides, hands pushing down, I began to make my way up. At first the movements were easy, but the strain of applying constant pressure and the increasing distance from the last perch of rock beneath my feet began to wear at my mental fortitude.
Sweat poured down my brow. Higher I went, facing a smooth slab, my feet pushing against it, my back to the other, compressed. No ground beneath my feet, only the gaping throat above and below. Cracks deep in the chimney provided occasional placements for gear.
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photo: Jake Moon -click the photo to enlarge and you'll see me high up
in the steep chimney. |
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| Jake (barely visible way down low in the chimney--click to enlarge a bit), following the first chimney pitch - this gives you somewhat of a sense of the incredible length of the chimney - and this is just the first section. |
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| Jake, hanging it out. |
Everything disappeared. I was entombed, and with my interment thought vanished in the low chant of my hands, feet and back:
don't fall don't slip don't fall don't slip don't fall don't slip
My heartbeat matched the tempo of my chant and I moved and anxiety became kinesis.
And there it is, you see. The stress of work and immobility - I sweat it out and left it in that long, hollow reach. Now when I revisit those old haunts of a familiar ennui - work, school, relationships, the future - instead of that heavy settling that sags tendon and sinew and I remember the touch of cool, tawny stone on my hands and the pressure of the air and how it tastes in my lungs and the firing of muscle that moves and does not fail in a setting large enough to take all of that other and to guard it with my own fear that now more closely resembles hope than cynicism.
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| photo: Jake Moon |
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| photo: Jake Moon - exiting the final chimney pitch |
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| photo: Jake Moon - nearing the top of Epinephrine |
And so we move, and as we do our histories and the weight of having to remember it all is lost on the rock, in its shadowy recesses and across broad faces that hide both light and pain in their dark fissures.
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| Jake, high on Epineprine. |
Until you're all that's left, that is, until there is only stone and desert and the joy of being there. Dehydrated and hungry, fingers bloodied, toes sore. After the drama is over and I'm back at my job and worried about school and the economy and money these new memories shore up old weaknesses - that familiar heavy settling - and it is your beauty that caulks the cracks.

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| View from near the top of Black Velvet Peak - Red Rock in all its beauty (just one small view of it, it extends much further behind me, broken up into several major canyons and peaks) |
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| photo: Jake Moon |
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| photo: Jake Moon - an exposed scramble over to the shoulder of the upper face that will take us to the summit |
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| and up the final bit of ridgeline to the summit |
And not only. The ties of kin and friendship begin to resemble geologic sedimentation the more I think of you. It is only fair - if you are yoked to me, that I should be yoked to you. When those affections for family and friend stir, it is also you I see in a reverse transposition.
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| photo: Jake Moon - ringtial |
Continue on, dear steward of chuckwalla and ringtail, sun and storm, stone and water. Tend to the migrant colors which you shepherd in greens and reds through your low brush and flowering cacti, continue the mural painted in thick varnish high on your escarpments as you always have and always will, reminded or no. To those who seek respite in your carved canyons, or on any of your many precipitous faces, may you ever ease in your natural rounds the reaching ache of our estrangements.
Love,
Stoneheart
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| photo: Jake Moon - Black Velvet Peak profiled in the background. Descending from our climb of "Epinephrine" |
...and a happy Mother's Day to the woman who taught me to speak, read, write, and to value my own judgment.